The contemporary American Zen teacher Taigen Dan Leighton has written many wonderful books. One of my favorites is ‘Cultivating the Empty Field’ which is his translation of Master Hongzhi. It’s divided up into various sections. One of the sections is ‘Practice Instructions’ where there’s passages like this:
“you must completely withdraw from the invisible pounding and weaving of your ingrained ideas. If you want to be rid of this invisible turmoil, you must just sit through it and let go of everything, attain fulfillment and illuminate thoroughly, light and shadow altogether forgotten. Drop off your own skin and the sense dusts will be fully purified, the eye readily discerning the brightness. Accept your function and be wholly satisfied”
When we hear ‘practice instructions’ like that we think that’s what I need to do so in my zazen I have to aspire to practice in the way that Master Hongzhi is describing,because they’re instructions.
I think that’s an unfortunate misunderstanding. I don’t think they are instructions. I think they’re descriptions of Master Hongzhi’s own experience.
If we take the instruction as a description, but a description of what zazen should be [and is with Hongzhi] there isn’t really a difference. But that’s what Hongzhi is getting at. What he’s talking about when he’s describing his practice of zazen, isn’t that you must replicate that practice, but rather the world of your zazen contains unseen vastness which is yours and which you require to find your own way of describing.
And that’s where sangha comes in. Because we can share our experiences with fellow practitioners in a spirit of compassion and love.
Because our orientation is very often psychological, what’s most obvious to us in zazen is whether our mind is peaceful or agitated. We tend to neglect the evolution that takes place, over time, within our true body. For example, it took me a tremendously long time, to understand the practice instruction of gently pushing out the lower belly when we were breathing in. It was a mistranslation. What it was getting at was when we are sitting in the correct posture, with our weight dropping down through our sit bones, our pelvis aligned correctly, our in breath without intention gently pushes our lower belly out, pushes our pelvic floor – almost imperceptibly – down, and pushes the back of our pelvis back, and all that is a dynamic and connecting movement. On the in breath you are pushing the earth, connecting to the earth, and on the out breath we just relax. And the sense of this energised pelvic bowl pushing the earth makes possible a way of feeling, which is as if our connection isn’t just a physical connection with whatever we are sitting on, it is the connection to the ground of all being. Our root is going down into this shared ground of existence which all other beings participate in.
Likewise, when I started sitting and I heard instructions for pushing up with the top of the head, those instructions misled me for a long time. But what I came to understand is that if our pelvis is aligned in the right position, there’s a natural up movement in our spine. And that pushes out through the crown of the head, the crown chakra and that’s as if we’re pushing the sky. But it’s not a conscious push, it’s a natural movement, An energetic movement of the spine that just –as it were– shoots our being upwards through our crown chakra.
Gradually I came to understand other components. What the Chinese referred to as the ‘jade pillow’, the area around the occipital joint also opens and participates in this up movement.
Our embodied awareness isn’t static: it gradually articulates itself. I became aware after a while that this push up wasn’t coming from my head, it was actually coming from down deep in my torso. That was where the energetic upward impulse came from.
Awareness isn’t a static. Once we realise something, it’s as if there’s the vast world of our zazen which ‘s possible for us to eventually describe as it is gradually revealed by the light of our awareness.
In a similar evolving way although I know intellectually that sitting in a balanced posture with the spine energised uncompresses the torso, it’s only very recently that I’ve come to experience this area around my heart expanding, uncompressing which has a wonderful energetic quality to it, but also an emotional, connecting quality to it. It’s as if the spine, when activated, is like a tree. The roots are going into the ground, the top branches are going up into the sky of spacious, empty awareness. And the heart, the branches, as it were, come out into the world. So, the compassion that we talk about so much in Buddhism is actualised in the body. You feel it, it’s as if there’s a living connection with all beings.
And for me, I want to share this because there is a continual evolution of our posture and our potential awareness of it, which is very often out of sight, but which is extremely valuable for us to give attention to.
I think there’s another point to be made. Our miracle power as human beings is description and empathy. We can feel what someone else is experiencing. But that miracle power isn’t accessed by a description of our emotions, nor by an intellectual description of what’s going on for us. It’s accessed through metaphorical and poetic language. That’s the miracle power.
The problem is that Hongzhi and all the other teachers who are earnestly trying to describe their practice with the language which they have available, are going to use metaphors which are very often particular to the culture, and are quite hard for us to understand. It’s quite hard for us to see that metaphors aren’t an idiosyncratic capsule of compressed meaning but are –as it were – a capsule of feeling, a seed of feeling which opens up something much bigger. And when we’re describing our posture it seems to me we’re obliged to talk in metaphorical terms, not least because the somatic energetic experiencing, the connective and feeling experiencing we’re having during zazen does not fit within analytical language, does not fit within an ordinarily descriptive language. Metaphor and poetry is necessary.